That is so insane of you to create a novel, privately-interpreted, self-absorbed doctrine and say everyone has failed to come to Christ for not following your doctrine. Your doctrine exalts yourself over Christ by claiming you can be equal to him.You're not a Christian. You're an apostate heretic if I understand your backstory correctly. Just trying to help you get back on the right track.
If you cannot take your doctrine to a significant group of theologians and scholars and overseers, then you should not be pushing it here.