You can confess Jesus as God. That is good if you have started to do that.I do confess with my mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe with all of my heart that God raised him from the dead. I actually am a Christian and don't deny Jesus like you and some others say I do.
If you confess Jesus as lord in some vague way, you just do the same things JWs and Mormonites do -- you speak of allegiance to a false Jesus.
You however deny the testimony of the divinity of Christ in the Godhead. That is just your pursuing and defending of misunderstanding. Hopefully this is not sufficient to be excluded from Christ. But you reject the arguments of Christ's preexistence and replace the idea with goofy concepts.but I think we just understand the wording of the Bible different ways. That's really the bottom line about it.
If your ideas were not against central doctrine of who Christ is ... and if you were close to truth ... and if you had decent arguments ... we would not be discussing this in such detail.