You have been indoctrinated. There's NOTHING gracious about the Calvinist "god" who predetermines which of us will be entering eternal life and which of us will be burning eternally in the lake of fire, no matter what we do or don't do and no matter what we believe or don't believe.
But that's not surprising because John Calvin himself did not display any semblance of grace, having "heretics" who didn't accept his doctrine, burned at the stake or beheaded, and even tortured.
"And killing people who perverted his pure doctrine was a moral necessity.
"Calvin specifically justified capital punishment of heretics with Leviticus 24:16. “The one who blasphemes the name of the Lord should be put to death; all the congregation must stone him. Any foreigner or native who blasphemes the Name should be put to death.”
"Jesus’ teaching to “love your enemies” didn’t stop Calvin from approving and promoting the death of his theological enemies. And Paul’s instructions for dealing with people who theologically disagree with you were equally ignored: “A servant of the Lord must not quarrel but must be kind to everyone, be able to teach, and be patient with difficult people. Gently instruct those who oppose the truth. Perhaps God will change those people’s hearts, and they will learn the truth” (2 Timothy 2:24-25). Calvin did not patiently discuss his differences with people who promoted competing ideas. Calvin requested beheadings, made death threats, and praised God for orchestrating the torture of heretics.
"Calvin spelled out his theologically reinforced vengeance in a personal letter:
“ 'I am persuaded that it is not without the special will of God that, apart from any verdict of the judges, the criminals have endured protracted torment at the hands of the executioner.' ” - Calvin's letter to Farel on 24 July (for more words directly from Calvin’s pen, read Selected Works of John Calvin)."
Calvin was a cruel murderer. In Geneva, to simply disagree publicly with Calvin, was a heinous crime, punishable by torture and a slow death. Calvin was not like Jesus in any way, shape or form. He was like Hamas or ISIS - either you accept his teaching, or you will be tortured to death. To call Calvinism/TULIP the "Gospel of God's Grace" is a mockery. Any Calvinist who knows those things about John Calvin, and yet persists in following his teachings, is in need of serious repentance and counseling.
Didn't Jesus say that you will know false prophets by their fruits? Matthew 7:15-20 John Calvin was a false prophet, if there ever was one.