I do not know how to explain it.
I only know that through my brick and mortar church and their teachings as a child I came to know that it was because of the shed blood of Jesus on the cross that salvation was brought to those who had faith or believed that. It was after that that the brick and mortar church confirmed me to
be a member... along with others in the class we were taking and after that I had my first Holy Communion. My church will only serve communion to those who believe that Jesus is the reason.....
This is a good practice.
Communion is not a meal for everyone....
Jesus said: Do this in remembrance of Me.
Which always seemed counter to Predestined beliefs that never seem to emphasize that.
Agreed. If everything is predestined...
man needs do nothing at all because God is doing it all for him.
Predestination is incorrect in so many ways...
Anyway... I went through the 60s and all that entailed and being young ... well lets just say I did things I am not proud of. Yet I still was told I was saved, but I just did not feel it.... not like today. It was when I was in my late 30s that I felt God must be very disapppointed in me but I also came to believe that I might possibly not be saved.
Happily for us....God will judge us on what we know.
It would be up to the churches to teach more...but not all of them do.
However, you see, the Holy Spirit is always working in us.
Obviously I am leaving things unexplained. I shall leave it up to the reader to fill in the blanks.
So I went on a personal growth toward and with God. My life became centered on NOT WORKS... but on learning. Readings. and yes, even listening to multiple televangelists... a variety who did not all talk the same talk and it was during this time.. into the late 80s or early 90s that I began to pray in tongues. STOP............ This is not for discussion. And I started to go to visit some of these televangelists... Jack Van Impe, and even to Robert Schullers Founders INN where they were having a conference on end times. .... another not for discussion subject... and was the first time I was in the presence of those who actually raised their hands in song and prayer. Truth. I was not phased by this. But I did enjoy the speakers at the conference on end times for that has been something of interest for me since I was in my 20s.
No problem I used to go to Jimmy Swaggart conferences, or whatever they were called, even my non-born again at the time husband would come with me and enjoy these conferences...15, 20 thousand persons - it was like a party. He was with the AofG back then...good teaching.
Anyway, I came back from that and went about life as usual... still reading and seeking and following God as much as I could and even had the opportunity in 2004 to go to San Antonio Texas and hear John Hagee preach... but 4 years later my life finally fell apart. It was actually doing so from around 1998 until about 2007 and I was in trouble and God had my back in an unbelievable way. (Nope... no explanations)
Like I said....He always does.
But what did I do to repay him..... I allowed myself to go back into some old habits and new and it took me 3 years to let my guilt bring me to my senses and every so slowly i got back on the straight and narrow.... not without a major health issue as a result on my foolishness and then
one day I cannot say what I was doing.... It may have been as I was watching a religious program or it could have been when my mind was thinking I only know that I experienced a feeling that could only have been the Holy Spirit convicting me and entering me and he is still here.
Sounds normal. We have to get to the bottom of the barrel before we listen.
Everything has to be taken away so we could turn to God and finally HEAR Him.
This is a common experience.
The world makes too much noise.
I cannot describe the feeling. If you have had it you know.
So while the Sovereignty of God has full control of everything from beginning to the end and has controlled much of what we read in the Scriptures as well as having permitted thing in the Scriptures He allowed me the freedom to explore my freewill throughout my life until I just no longer wanted to because His love and Jesus love are far to important then anything this life will allow.
OK...but it is also your free will that allowed you to finally say yes to God.
You're still a free person...but you have finally heard
Romans 12:1-2
1 Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship.
2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.
You see, we PRESENT ourselves to God...
He doesn't drag us to Him.
And, we are not to conform to this world,,,but to serve God as best we can.
So I repeat.. I dont know how I did... but I did. Praise God
Maranatha
Amen,amen
Praise be to God for His goodness toward us.