probably the most difficult thing I did which began my journey out from calvinism is when I began to question things I was taught assuming they were the gospel truth no ifs ands or buts about them. They were as we like to say written in stone. But once I discovered something I believed and I was taught was true and began to examine it from an objective lens and found it to be false I was able to do that with many other things I assumed were true about God and not actually found to be true in scripture. That took me down a road that I'm still traveling on questioning things like a Good Berean should do. It was very freeing and I was able to see God differently than I had before and He became more Glorious to me than He was before. The study of God ( Theology ) is the greatest pursuit in life, to know Him personally, His Good name, character, nature and how He interacts with man. The Pursuit of God continues to be a daily motivator in my daily life and will remain that way until I take my last breath in this life. I'm always a student , always learning and being open minded to correction and that what I believe needs to be examined through scripture. If something appears to be a contradiction I know its not but is only my human understanding that appears to see a contradiction. There is perfect unity and harmony when it come to Gods nature/character. He is the same in the Old and He is in the New testament. Sometimes people conflate His character with His attributes and there is a difference with His primary attributes/character within His own Being as Triune vs His interaction with fallen mankind. But most people do not want to travel down this road in fear they might be wrong.

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This was a stumbling block for the old group on the old forum I left and stuck in their ways and concepts of God they could not bet past what they were incorrectly taught and to examine those claims with an open mind.
I am about to type something to you and all .
Now before you read this i want you to know and understand
that just because some of you all might think this about me , It dont mean I THINK you the devil
or not christain .
Have you sat down . Good . I am about to type .
I KNOW most folks think GOOD heavens this cat is way too grave , way too fast to correct ,
he nit picks , He is too darn serious .
He means well but is too darn zealous .
Now if YOU think that , That does not mean you a devil . NOR that i think you a devil .
BUT if you think i am too grave , too serious , too quick to correct
THEN I invite you to read over and over and over and over again
The four gospels , the acts , the letters from all apostels . NOW the more this pattern this truth
gets engrained a time will come
when you will probably tell me this . FRIEND you aint grave enough , YOU need to be MORE serious
you need to .............
I AM TELLING you all , I myself have at times fallen short of HOW the apostels did things for the church .
NOW GOD DOES Remind me when i do . BUT if you all think i am too grave
too serious , believe you me MEN would have shuddered in terror at how grave paul and them apostels could be
I aint the monster who judges and hates , I LOVE THE PEOPELS no matter what THEY THINK and say about me .
IN fact i KNOW i aint no better than anyone , IN FACT the only GOODNESS i have IS and comes OF GOD .
I NEED MORE MEN to stand and help me in this fight . And i pray they will .
AND always correct me if you THINK you see error . I aint above correction . BUT when we do correct one another
LETS DO SO with bible truth . that is all i ask . DONT do it through the lens of men
DO IT THROUGH THE BIBLE